The Coward's Meme:
1) List ten things you want to say to people but know you never will.
2) Don't say who they are.
3) Disable comments.
4) Never discuss it again.
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1. I adore you. You are the best of the best and regardless of how we may snip at each other and disagree just to disagree (you know you do it too sometimes!) I love you to pieces and would do anything in the world for you. You take care of me and baby me and tell me the truth and that is the best thing a true friend can do.
2. I miss seeing you every day. I know I do stupid things and you always say, 'Oh Sarah' but it is a comfort. At that time I knew it was okay and you were still my friend anyway, but now sometimes I wonder. I know life gets in the way sometimes but I wonder if there is more to it and I wish we could talk about it.
3. You are the first person I have ever loved, but you will not be the last. Regardless of what everyone has said, I can not bring myself to hate even though I should. No one understands why we did what we did, and why it went on for so long, but that's okay because they don't have to. We know why and that's all that matters. Even though I shouldn't want you to be a part of my life at all, I am still glad that you are because you were a part of what made me the person I am today (yes, both the good and the bad). It was a learning experience on how I would allow myself to be treated next time around, so if nothing else, thank you for that.
4. Sometimes I miss you. True friendships ARE hard to come by, and I thought that is what we had, and we did for a very long time. I was sorry to see it go but I can't be around people I don't trust. I do understand your position, whether you think I do or not. However, you were wrong and that's that. We have a lot of good memories but the things you said and did can never be erased and it was unforgivable. Karma sucks, doesn't it?
5. I don't understand you at all and at this point I don't want to because I do not care. You can't claim you love someone, yet act the way you did. You wanted the best of both worlds and tried to keep it going for as long as you could take advantage of the situation. I wish it had not taken me so long to have the courage to cut you out of my life, but I am glad I did because I know how strong I am and I know I am better than that.
6. Your offensive scheme sucks. Your defensive scheme used to sort of work until your suckiness permeated everything about the team. You're a horrible coach. Go away from Nebraska and never come back, you have forever marred our cherished program and should be sent far, far away.
7. You are crazy and two-faced and no wonder we are not friends. I am glad I realized how crazy you were very early on. You got into the middle of something that had nothing to do with you and tried to stir up more trouble than was ever necessary. You are childish and completely immature and not a good writer so you had better find a new profession.
8. You're attractive. You ARE attractive. However, I no longer want to be attractive together, but thank you anyway.
9. Grow a pair and actually take sides for one in your life. I know it is not physically possible for you to actually 'grow a pair' but please, just stand up for your friends for once instead of trying to play the diplomat and keep everyone happy all the time. It won't work, because no one can be happy 100% of the time. I know there is still a lot going on in your life and I adore you still, but do what is right, please, please, please.
10. Grow up. You are not the smartest person in the world, you are no better than anyone else, you're not the king of the universe. Everyone is entitled to just as much as you, so quit acting like the world owes you a favor because it doesn't. No one does.
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Okay, so I had a tough time with this. A lot of the things I said were not nice, but that's because my friends do know how much they mean to me and I tell them often. This is stuff I feel better about getting out of my system. Some will read it and know what is sad for who, and some this was meant for will never see it at all. Some are definitely obvious, some are only half-serious, others are dead-serious. Any way around it, don't be offended because chances are the ones who do read this will figure some of them out pretty darn quick.
